Hello everyone! I'm lanis01 and this is my first attempt to writing a Sekkushiaru Roman. For those of you 
who don’t know what this is it’s a romance story that contains a lot of adult themes. This is for mature 
readers only. If you caught with this and you are underage I hope your parents teach you a lesson! I am not 
responsible for minors that happen to read this story because they are not my responsibility they are the 
parents and this story is on a site that says who can read this and who can't. I don't own any of the 
characters in this, Toei, Naoko Takeuchi and other people who I don't know of yet do. This story line 
however is my idea and I hope you readers enjoy my story! 


Hotaru's secret
By: Lanis01


       "Ten to three, ten more minutes closer to freedom." Hotaru sighed happily. It was the last day 
of school and Hotaru couldn't wait to get home. School was never her favorite thing. Even though 
she had a normal life like the rest of the sailor soldiers, her life could never be anything like 
normal. The attacks she used to have when she had first met the other soldiers had come back. 
She thought it was always because she was torn between the two forces trapped inside her body, 
but now there was no reason for her attacks. 'I'm just a freak like always' she thought to herself. 
At least that’s what the kids at school told her. She had no friends at her school; she really didn't 
want to be friends with people like them. She thought things would be different after she had 
become sailor saturn but nothing had changed. 'No, that’s not all true, one this has changed' she 
thought again. She opened her wallet and saw the picture she had inside it. It made her smile, 
which was something most people never saw. It wasn't an old picture, but the date the picture was 
taken seemed like it had been years ago. But no matter how old it was, its value to her heart 
would never change. She stared at the picture and thought back to when it was taken. It had been 
the happiest day of her life, one she would never forget. Suddenly her mind shot back to reality as 
the last bell rang and the students around her got up to leave. Hotaru put the picture away and 
stood up. No sooner has she stood up when a hand grabbed her shoulder and forced her back in 
her seat. Hotaru looked up scared to a girl who was known for causing a lot of fights in her 
school. She was a head taller then Hotaru but was very beautiful, at least that’s what most guys 
thought. She had blond curly hair that ended to her shoulders and dark green eyes. "Where do you 
think your going freak?" the girl asked tightening her hold on Hotaru's shoulder. "Wh…What do 
you want Kerri?" Hotaru whispered. "Shut up! I saw you looking at my boyfriend slut. Stay away 
from him or I'll cripple your worthless ass!" Kerri yelled. She turned her head to see if the two of 
them were alone and when she saw that they were she backhanded Hotaru across the face. Hotaru 
fell out of her chair and took her school bag with her, knocking out the things she had in it. 
"Understand?" Kerri said in a low voice. Hotaru was on her hands and knees and only nodded to 
the question. "Good. See you next year freak." Kerri said as she walked out of the empty 
classroom. Hotaru was starting to cry softly to herself as she picked up the things that had fallen 
out of her bag. 'The more things change, the more the remain the same…'

           'At least its over know, I don't have to go back for a long time.' Hotaru though to herself on 
her way home. Her cheek was red and so were her eyes. 'I just hope I get home in one piece, and 
once I do I'm running upstairs to my room and locking the door!' Hotaru thought again kicking a 
rock in front of her. 'But I know that won't change anything, I just hope my days get better.' As 
Hotaru was walking she heard a stick break behind her but before she could turn around someone 
covered her eyes with their hands from behind her. Hotaru gasped, scared that it might have been 
Kerri again. "Guess who!" a small voice said behind her. Hotaru sighed, as she knew who it was 
and smiled. "Is it a cute girl with short pink hair done up in a odd style?" Hotaru asked, blushing 
when she heard herself talk. "No, just little old me." Chibiusa said uncovering her eyes and 
stepping in front of Hotaru. "Hotaru are you ok? Your face is red and so are your eyes? Is 
everything alright?" Chibiusa asked with concern in her voice for her dear friend. Hotaru covered 
her cheek and said, "I'm fine, I always am aren't I?" That was all Chibiusa need to hear. "You 
can't lie to me Miss Hotaru Tomoe, I'm your best friend and I know when you're hiding 
something." Chibiusa said acting as if she knew Hotaru like a book, which she almost did. And 
almost was just how Hotaru wanted it. Hotaru only smiled, "I'm fine really Chibiusa, you don't 
need to worry about me." Chibiusa gave Hotaru a serious look and said back, "What kind of a 
friend would I be if I didn't worry?" Hotaru sighed and asked, "Would you walk me home please 
Chibiusa? I mean if you're not busy." Chibiusa smiled and took Hotaru's hand. "Of course I will. 
Is it ok with you if I stay alittle while? Usagi is cooking again today and I'm scared to go home." 
Hotaru giggled and nodded. "I would love to have you over." The two girls smiled to one another 
and made there way to Hotaru's house. 

     "Please, make yourself at home. Haruka-papa and Michiru-mama won't be home till late 
because I think they were going to try and go out on a date. And Setsuna-mama has been really 
busy lately so I don’t even think she'll come home." Hotaru said taking her shoes off. "You sure 
they won't mind?" Chibiusa asked setting her bags down. "I'm sure, why would they mind?" 
Hotaru asked walking into the kitchen. "Would you like something to drink?" Hotaru asked. "No 
that’s ok, do you mind if I put my bags in your room?" Chibiusa asked back. "No go ahead, I 
have to check on dinner so I'll be up in a minute." Hotaru said. Chibiusa took her bags and ran 
upstairs. She went to the end of the hallway and opened the door to Hotaru's room. As soon as the 
door opened up she caught the scent of Jasmine in the room. Hotaru had two dark emerald green 
candles lit. Hotaru's room was always dark if not for the lamps and few scented candles she had. 
Chibiusa always loved being in Hotaru's room, it was so, romantic. But it was also dark, like 
Hotaru was sometimes. That thought made Chibiusa frown, she knew that recently Hotaru had 
been acting sadder and sadder but would always try and hide it when she was around. Chibiusa 
sat down on Hotaru's bed and let she let herself fall back. Hotaru had a feather bed and it was 
always very comfortable, like a cloud. She turned and noticed something, a large black leather 
book on Hotaru's desk. It had a purple ribbon in the middle. Chibiusa knew she shouldn't have 
looked in it but she couldn’t stop her curiosity. She opened the book and read what was inside. 
'Oh my god this is Hotaru's diary! Oh my…no wonder she's been so sad!' Chibiusa thought to 
herself. Hotaru had never told her about her attacks coming back or that nothing in her social life 
had changed. What made Chibiusa really upset was the line she read at the end; 'I was born a 
freak, and I'll die a freak.' Chibiusa heard footsteps coming up to the room and quickly put the 
book back. Hotaru walked in her room and noticed the look on Chibiusa's face. "What's wrong?" 
she asked seeing that Chibiusa was upset. "Why didn't you tell me?" Chibiusa asked. Hotaru 
looked at Chibiusa for a moment then noticed her dairy was behind her. "What are you talking 
about?" Hotaru asked, although she had a good idea what Chibiusa was talking about. "I'm 
talking about your attacks coming back! And that you've been getting beat up at school! I take it 
that it happened again." Chibiusa said in an angry tone, pointing to Hotaru's still sore cheek. 
Hotaru was shocked that she knew all that and felt tears building up in her eyes. 'Oh my god, she 
read it! She must know what I wrote about her then!' "Chibiusa…I'm sorry I…" Hotaru couldn't 
think of words to say, she thought Chibiusa would hate her forever now that she knew Hotaru's 
secret. "And I wish you wouldn't think like that, it's wrong Hotaru! You know it is." Rini said, 
talking about how Hotaru thought she was a freak. Hotaru couldn't believe what Chibiusa had 
said and started to breakdown. "I know its wrong, I'm so sorry!" Hotaru cried thinking she was 
talking about her secret. Tears were sliding down her face and finally Hotaru ran out of her room. 
Chibiusa didn't know why Hotaru had acted so serious over what she said. But she didn't read all 
of Hotaru's diary, at least not the part about her. Chibiusa ran after Hotaru and found her crying in 
her parent's bedroom. "Hotaru? I'm sorry I didn't mean to make you cry. I had no idea you take it 
that seriously." Chibiusa said behind Hotaru. "I knew you would be angry with me, I know 
thinking such things are wrong and I know you must hate me for what I wrote about you. Its just 
that you…" Hotaru couldn't finish her sentence. Chibiusa moved in front of her and knelled down 
next to her. "What did you write about me?" she asked. Hotaru looked up to her in shock 'Oh my 
god she doesn't know?!' Hotaru though. Hotaru was even more scared now. Her secret had not 
been found out by the one person that it had to do with, but now her mistake would force that 
secret out. "Hotaru? What did you write about me?" Rini asked again. Hotaru couldn't bring 
herself to say it. "Please Chibiusa, I don't want to talk about it. It was nothing. I just need to get 
some rest." Hotaru said as she tried to leave. Chibiusa grabbed her arm and stopped her. "Please 
Hotaru, if something is bothering you I want to know what it is. I'm your best friend aren't I?  
Please let me help you!" Chibiusa said now getting frustrated with her. "Chibiusa please!" Hotaru 
yelled. Chibiusa let her arm go and backed off in shock. She had not expected to hear Hotaru yell 
at her. Hotaru began to cry again when she realized she had yell at her best friend for only trying 
to help her. "Please, I just want to get some rest now. I don't want to talk about it anymore." 
Hotaru said softly, trying to act calmer. Chibiusa just nodded, afraid to say anymore. "I'm sorry, 
I'll get my bag and go back home, I didn't mean to upset you." Chibiusa said, leaving before 
Hotaru could say anything else. She ran back to Hotaru's room and grabbed her bag, unknowingly 
knocking Hotaru's dairy in an open pocket in her bag. She took the bag in her arm and left. She 
was about to leave when Hotaru stopped her. "Chibiusa, I'm sorry for raising my voice. You were 
right; I did get into another fight in school today. My days only seem to get harder as they go by. 
Now I just want to rest for awhile. I appreciate that you want to help me, but there are 
something's that a friend just can't help someone with. I'm really sorry I yelled at you." Hotaru 
said bowing her head. Chibiusa only nodded and put on a fake smile. "It's ok, I know you had a 
hard day. I'll leave you alone now." Chibiusa said quickly. She left just as fast, not waiting to say 
goodbye to Hotaru. Hotaru wanted to stop her before a sharp pain hit her chest and made her 
collapse. She was having another one of her attacks. She grabbed her chest, struggling to breathe. 
This attack was the worst one she had ever had. "Chibiusa…" Hotaru tried to yell out, but it came 
only in a whisper. Hotaru was scared now and thought for sure that she was going to die, the pain 
she was in was so great that for a moment she wanted to die if it meant ending this pain. Tears 
were building up in Hotaru's eyes and suddenly everything went black. 'I'm dead' was Hotaru's 
last thought; not something you want to take with you into the darkness. 

       Colors. Dark and cold colors. It felt like being in a tomb almost. But there was a breeze? 
Tombs don't have a breeze, do they? That’s what Hotaru asked herself when she opened her eyes. 
Her vision was blurred and she couldn't tell where she was or if she was alone. She tried to talk 
but couldn't. 'I'm dead…' Hotaru though to herself again. Suddenly she felt something warm take 
her hand. She closed her eyes and opened them again to clear her vision. What she saw would 
have made her cry. She wasn't dead at all, she was in her room laying on top of her bed with what 
Hotaru thought for sure could only have been an angel. "Chibiusa…" Hotaru whispered after she 
licked her dry and cracked lips. How long had she been out? When she spoke the name of the 
person sitting next to her bed the grip on her hand tighten. "Shh Hotaru, don't try and talk. You've 
been unconsciousness for three days now. The doctors thought you were in a coma and you 
would never wake up. But I told them they were wrong, I made them go away and told the others 
I would stay with you until you woke up." Chibiusa had tears in her red eyes and after Hotaru's 
vision cleared more she could see Chibiusa's cheeks were tear stained. 'She stayed her with me? 
All that time, for me?' Hotaru though that maybe she really did die, why would anyone want to 
stay with her when everyone else thought she was with death. Chibiusa brushed some hair off 
Hotaru's face and said, "Are you hungry Hotaru? Can I get you anything?" Hotaru only shook her 
head. She was tired but she didn't have the strength to eat or to even sleep. Plus if what Chibiusa 
said was true, which she knew it was when she saw a plate with food half eaten on her desk and a 
blanket on Chibiusa's lap, then Hotaru wouldn't burden her any further. Chibiusa smiled at Hotaru 
and said, "Don't worry about it, I'll get something right now." Chibiusa got up and pulled the 
blanket that was covering Hotaru up more and she tucked some of the blanket under Hotaru's feet. 
"Promise me you'll be awake when I come back ok?" Hotaru would have cried right there if she 
hadn't been struggling to hold back her tears. Hotaru nodded. "Thank you Tara-chan, I'll be back 
really soon." Chibiusa said. She walked out of Hotaru's room and closed the door behind her, 
forgetting what she had just called Hotaru. Hotaru stared at the door in shock, she wondered if 
that had been all a dream. 'If that was just another of my dying dreams, I pray I die with this 
dream so I may never leave it.'

     Night had come; Hotaru had just fallen asleep. Chibiusa had made sure that Hotaru didn't get 
out of bed with out her knowing. She wouldn't let anyone else in the room beside her and told the 
others, "I just need to be alone with her." Chibiusa sat back in an old rocking chair that Hotaru 
had. She remembered her telling Chibiusa that it was her mother's. She closed her eyes and 
smiled. 'Thank God you woke up Tara-chan. Thank you God so much.' Chibiusa took a book 
from her backpack and opened it to a bookmarked page. She smiled joyfully and read the same 
pages she had been reading for those three days she stayed with Hotaru:

June 25, 1999
The day I opened my eyes

Dear diary,
     God knows how many lives I've ruined, God knows how many lives I'll lived, but for the first 
time in all those lives, my eyes have opened. All this time I kept fooling myself thinking this was 
wrong or that I was wrong myself. I have given this a lot of thought and I'm sure with all my 
heart that this is anything but wrong. I kissed someone for the first time in my life. Not a kiss on 
the cheek but a real kiss on the lips. Oh it was the sweetest feeling I could ever feel. I can't think 
of words to describe it but pure serenity would be the only thing that comes close to it. I know 
that I love this person, I have loved this person for a long time. No, I take that back, love is to 
small a word to describe how I feel about this person. To think I never saw it makes wonder how 
I can see anything. But now I worry about what this person will think. Will they feel the same? I 
think they won't. No, not for me. I am the last person to be blessed by something wonderful as 
true love. They could not love me because I am different. Even more now then before. I fear if I 
ever tell them about my true feelings that they will laugh or even worse, abandon me and think 
me a freak when they are the only soul on this planet that might just think I am normal. Its funny, 
writing that right now, I don't believe I am or ever well be normal. I was born with this curse and 
I'll die with it, then take it with me to my next life. So I decided not to tell this person I love them, 
nor that I stole a kiss from them in their sleep. I suppose they may never know how I feel, even 
though I scream the words "I love you" from my heart; they will never hear them. Just like I will 
never hear those words back from their lips. Their sweet lips.  I would give anything to kiss their 
lips again, to have them hold me in their arms at night and in day. To look into their eyes and 
know that they really love me in all the ways a human can be loved. If it were possible for me 
then I would sell my soul to have them forever. But just like I said before, this person, this sweet 
and special person would never love a mistake like me. They are far too good for me to have. For 
me to call my own. But I hope and pray, beyond hope and prayers can go, that this person might 
someday say the words I may never live to hear, "I love you Hotaru." It has grown late now, I 
should go and sleep but that would only bring my days closer to me, and so far for the last four 
weeks my days have given me only sadness and more reasons to hold that knife to my wrist. If 
not for this person, I would have died along ago. And this person, this person who God himself 
must have sent to be with me is someone who I hope I never lose, someone how has become the 
only ray of light in my dark world. And that someone is Chibiusa…

      Chibiusa blushed the whole time she read that special part in Hotaru's dairy. She never had a 
clue that Hotaru felt like this about her. When she thought about it, they had been spending more 
time with each other recently, and it was normally just the two of them. Hotaru was very dear to 
Chibiusa; she was her first real friend sense she came back to the past. Chibiusa smiled 
remembering the day they first met. Her hat had been flown away in the park. And even though 
Hotaru didn't know Chibiusa at the time she went after her hat and saved it from a creek. She 
wasn't even suppose to be running because she was so weak but she still did it. 'Maybe she 
already knew?' Chibiusa though, holding the diary close to her like she would hold a teddy bear. 
'Do I feel the same?' she thought again. She turned to Hotaru who was still sleeping soundly in 
bed. She was the only person Chibiusa knew that didn't look peaceful when they slept. Hotaru 
didn't look like she was in pain, just sad. Chibiusa put the book down on the desk and moved to 
the side of the bed. She lit one of Hotaru's lamps and stood by the foot of the bed. Chibiusa 
smiled to Hotaru, her face looked beautiful in the small amount of light the lamp gave out. 
Chibiusa bent over and moved some of Hotaru's hair away from her face but didn't get back up. 
Chibiusa was staring at Hotaru's face. There was something different about, something she had 
never noticed before. Hotaru's face looked so pretty, even though she couldn't see her eyes. "You 
are important to me…" Chibiusa whispered. She felt her heart beginning to beat faster as she 
licked her lips and took a deep breath. Chibiusa bent over alittle more and very gently gave 
Hotaru a kiss. Just like Hotaru had stole a kiss from her, Chibiusa had just stole a kiss from 
Hotaru, and Chibiusa blushed greatly after it. But, she did have a rather big smile on her face.

      Hotaru woke up early the morning after to the scent of pancakes. Hotaru sat up in bed and 
looked around. Chibiusa was still asleep in her mother's rocking chair. Hotaru blushed alittle and 
thought how sweet Chibiusa was to stay with her all these nights. Hotaru pushed the heavy 
blankets away and was surprised to see that she was still in her school uniform. 'Eww. I need to 
change. No I need a shower first!' Hotaru though. They she smelled pancakes. 'After I eat.' She 
tried to stand up but found that it was kind of hard. Chibiusa heard Hotaru getting up and jumped 
out of her chair. "Hotaru! You shouldn't be moving around like that! You might hurt yourself!" 
Chibiusa said taking Hotaru's arm and helping her stand when she was about to fall. Hotaru only 
blushed. "Chibiusa, I'm fine really I am. I need to move around or I'll be stuck in that bed. And I 
think I need to change these cloths." Hotaru said calmly, trying to fool her pink hair friend. 
Chibiusa didn't buy it. "Hold on, you can't just get up and walk away after being asleep for three 
days straight. Please let me take care of you for now." Chibiusa pleaded. Hotaru didn't want to 
agree with her but she was feeling alittle too weak to argue. "Alright…" Hotaru said sitting back 
in bed. “Good!” Chibiusa said happily. “Now I tell you what, you can go ahead and take a shower 
if you want, and then after that I’ll serve you breakfast in bed. Does that sound good?” Chibiusa 
asked. Hotaru giggled and nodded. “Your doing too much Chibiusa, you don’t have to be 
worrying yourself over me like this.” As soon as Hotaru had finished her sentence Chibiusa 
pressed her finger against Hotaru’s lips. “Shh, you almost died if I had not gone back to talk more 
to you, I was scared I would lose you Hotaru, so expect me to worry more about you for awhile. 
You’re a precious person to me and I’m going to take care of you until I know your better.” 
Chibiusa said looking into Hotaru’s eyes the whole time she was talking. ‘She has such lovely 
eyes’ Chibiusa thought to herself. Hotaru was shocked by Chibiusa and nodded to what she had 
said, blushing badly. “Alright then, so you going to take your shower or do you want your food 
now?” Chibiusa asked smiling happily knowing Hotaru was going to let her take care of her. 
Hotaru was still blushing and thought, ‘Thank God I have you…’

     Hotaru walked out of the bathroom carrying her cloths with her. She had finished taking her 
shower and felt a lot better now. She dressed herself in a black nightgown, even though it was 
still early in the day but Chibiusa wanted her to dress comfortable. It was nice knowing she had a 
friend that cared so much for her, but Hotaru never really felt worthy of Chibiusa's friendship. 
She was nothing like Chibiusa or any of her friends. She laughed alittle to herself when she 
thought to herself that she was nothing like anyone! But if Chibiusa could hear her thoughts she 
would scold Hotaru for thinking such foolish things. Chibiusa always said that out of all her 
friends Hotaru meant the most to her because she was her first true friend. And she always said 
that Hotaru was her special friend. Hotaru blushed remembering the first day Chibiusa said that to 
her. It was when Chibiusa went to see her father, after Sailor Moon had saved Hotaru from the 
silence. She was only a baby, but she clearly remembered Chibiusa holding her in her arms and 
whispering, "Sweet Hotaru, I know you may not be able to understand me, but I couldn't leave 
without saying good bye to you my special friend." Hotaru blushed more and quickly pulled 
herself together before she entered her room. She knew Chibiusa was in there and she didn't want 
to explain why she was blushing. She opened the door and dropped the cloths she was holding to 
the floor in surprise. Her room, dark as always, had every lamp she ever collected lit up. The 
room had a beautiful glow to it and for a second Hotaru didn't know if she was in the right room 
or not. She had never lit all of them before. She could smell something sweet in the air as well. 
"Jasmine," Chibiusa's voice said behind Hotaru. Hotaru turned around and saw Chibiusa was 
dressed in a nurse's dress. Hotaru couldn't help but notice that it looked little too tight on her from 
the waist up. "What's this?" Hotaru asked. "Just something to make you alittle more comfortable. 
Come on lay down. I changed the sheets on your bed too because I knew you wouldn't want to 
sleep in a sweaty bed." Chibiusa said with her finger in the air pointing up like she knew what she 
was talking about. Hotaru only sweat drop. She walked in and sat down on her bed, Chibiusa had 
put on the dark purple silk sheets Hotaru had. Chibiusa grabbed Hotaru's legs and lifted them up 
to the bed before Hotaru could stop her. " Haruka and Michiru are out now, I told them I could 
take care of you by myself and they agreed so it's just you and me." Chibiusa said. Hotaru 
blushed and said, "Chibiusa this is all so very thoughtful of you but it's all too much. You 
shouldn't have done all this for me. It must have took you all day." Chibiusa giggled and said, 
"Hotaru I want to take care of you, making you relax is one of the ways I take care of people. Plus 
I know you've had a hard couple of weeks and I haven't been a good friend by not being there for 
you so this is the least I can do." Hotaru blushed more and shook her head. "You’re a wonderful 
friend Chibiusa, more then I should have, thank you so much for all that you've done. It really 
means a lot to me." Chibiusa bowed. "Your very welcome Tara-chan. And don't say such foolish 
things about yourself." 

     Hotaru lay peacefully in bed after she had finished eating the dinner Chibiusa had brought her.  
She remembered what Usagi told her about Minako and Chibiusa dressing up like nurses and 
taking care of her. It made Hotaru laugh, even more when Usagi told her to watch out for that rice 
gruel they would bring her. Just then Chibiusa walked in to Hotaru's room. She smiled to Hotaru 
and asked, "Anything I can get you?" Hotaru giggled and said, "No Chibiusa I'm quiet fine. 
You've already taken such great care of me I can't thank you enough." Chibiusa only nodded and 
asked in serious tone, "Hotaru, may I talk to you about something?" Hotaru could tell the change 
in her friend's tone and said, "Of course Chibiusa, what is it?" Chibiusa walked to the bed and sat 
next to Hotaru. "I know now. I know what you think about me." Hotaru turned to face Chibiusa 
when she heard her say that and a feeling of fear ran down Hotaru's spine. "What…what do you 
mean?" Hotaru asked. Chibiusa took Hotaru's hand and said, "You know what I mean, I know 
what you feel for me, that you're in love with me." Chibiusa's voice was heavy with emotion and 
Hotaru was scared now that Chibiusa would hate her for knowing what she really thought about 
her friend. "Chibiusa…I…I know its wrong to think such things but…I can't help it." Hotaru had 
tears in her eyes and jumped out of her bed and gave Chibiusa a hard look. "I won't lie about it 
anymore, yes I do love you Chibiusa! I've loved you for a long time because you’re a special 
person to me and you mean so much to me that I can't imagine a life with out you." Hotaru yelled, 
tears running down her face. She was very scared about what Chibiusa would say about this but 
she knew she had to say it. It was the right thing to say. "You make my days worth living, you've 
always been there for me when even God himself abandoned me. When everyone thought I was 
just a cold-hearted killer you were the only one that would stand beside me and protect me, even 
when I turned on all of you, you still wouldn't give up on me. You saved my life; you saved my 
soul from the darkness that would have swallowed me whole. You’re the light in my life, how 
could I not fall in love with you?" Hotaru said before she fell to her knees crying. "I love you and 
I know you must think I'm a freak now more then ever." Hotaru was breaking down and Chibiusa 
went right to her and made Hotaru face her. The two girls looked into each other's eyes for while, 
one seeing sadness and begging for forgiveness, the other seeing only concern and what someone 
would have mistaken for love. "Chibiusa, I…" Hotaru never had the chance to finish her 
sentence. Chibiusa pulled Hotaru toward her and pressed her lips against hers. Hotaru's eyes grew 
big with surprise and shock; Chibiusa's eyes however were closed. Hotaru didn't know what to 
do, she wasn't even breathing. Chibiusa put her arms around Hotaru's neck and Hotaru closed her 
eyes, putting her arms around Chibiusa waist. The two girls relaxed and kissed each other for 
what seemed to them like hours. Finally, Chibiusa broke the kiss. Both girls' cheeks were red. 
"When you collapsed at your door after I left I was so scared that I couldn't get you to open your 
eyes, I prayed to God that you weren't going to die. I would have done anything to make you 
open your eyes again. I would have traded my life for yours. And then finally after help came, I 
thought to myself what would have happened if you had died right there and then. I would have 
been lost without you. The thought of losing you twice, no, three times was too much for me. I 
swear I was so scared I wouldn't leave your room. I stayed by your bedside holding your hand 
hoping and waiting for you to open your eyes again. All the while, I read more of your diary, and 
I realized I had felt the same about you all the time. And when I thought I was going to lose you, I 
made myself promise that when you woke up I wasn't going to lie to myself anymore. I wouldn't 
want to leave your side and most importantly, I wanted to let you know I left the same way about 
you." Chibiusa and Hotaru were both crying after Chibiusa's speech. Hotaru was crying the worst 
and hid her face in Chibiusa's chest. "Say it again please?" she asked. Chibiusa held Hotaru 
tightly, as if she was going to fade away and whispered, "I love you Hotaru." Hotaru stayed in 
Chibiusa's arms crying for an hour, thinking of how impossible it all seemed. How wrong it 
would seem that anyone would love a monster like her. But Chibiusa never let her go and Hotaru 
knew inside her heart that she would never let her go, just like she would never let Chibiusa go.      

     Hours had past, maybe more? Hotaru didn't care. Both her and Chibiusa were lying in her bed, 
Hotaru still in Chibiusa's arms. Her face was tear stained but she wasn't crying anymore. "What 
are you thinking Hotaru?" Chibiusa asked. Hotaru's back was toward Chibiusa and she couldn't 
see her face but Chibiusa knew she was not all right. Hotaru sighed and said, "I…I just still can't 
get over it I guess. I prayed so hard that someday someone would treat me like a normal person, 
and then I met you. Then I wished to fall in love with someone who would really love me back, 
not just say it, but mean it in every way it can be meant. Like the person's heart would say I love 
you, not their mouth. Then I began to realize just how important you were to me, and how much 
you truly me to me." Hotaru turned around and faced Chibiusa; the first thing she noticed where 
how Chibiusa's eyes glowed in the light the lamps around them gave out. 'Beautiful.' Hotaru 
thought to herself. "Hotaru, why didn't you tell me this sooner? Why were you afraid to tell me?" 
Chibiusa asked. Hotaru laughed alittle to the question and said, "What would you have thought if 
one day I came up to you and said 'Chibiusa I'm in love with you'? Besides, I was so sure you 
wouldn't feel the same way. I mean, I'm your best friend, at least I think I am still, and plus I'm a 
girl, I was worried what you would think about that, not to mention what everyone else would 
think. I didn't want to but you in that kind of situation. And what could you love in a freak like 
me?" Chibiusa placed her hand on Hotaru's cheek and put her forehead to Hotaru's. "Don't say 
such foolish things Hotaru. Your not a freak, never have been and never will be." Chibiusa said. 
She kissed Hotaru's forehead and continued, "I'll admit I can understand why you didn't tell me. 
But I'm glad I found out. You’re a special person to me Hotaru; you were my first real friend 
when I came to this time. You saved my hat when you didn't even know me, and you knew you 
shouldn't had been running. I can always trust you just like you can always trust me. So trust me 
when I say I do not care what Usagi or anyone else would say about you and me. One of the 
things my mother taught me was that love is love, love is unbiased and there is no wrong way to 
love someone, and I love you Hotaru. You’re the reason why I came back to this time again." 
Hotaru was hiding her face from Chibiusa's and could feel her eyes watering. "But…I'm crazy." 
Hotaru whispered, not wanting Chibiusa to hear. Chibiusa lifted Hotaru's face back up to hers and 
whispered back, "Your not crazy Tara-chan. Actually, from what I see right now, your beautiful." 
Chibiusa smiled a loving smile to Hotaru and gave her a soft and gentle kiss. Hotaru felt her body 
stiffen to the kiss but it didn't stop her from kissing back. Their kissed lasted for what seemed like 
forever to them. Chibiusa broke the kiss from Hotaru's soft lips and started kissing her cheeks and 
her forehead, everywhere on Hotaru's face. Hotaru started kissing Chibiusa neck and made her 
way down. She stopped at Chibiusa's transformation brooch and gave it a soft kiss; to her it felt 
like kissing Chibiusa's heart. Chibiusa put her hands on Hotaru's cheeks and brought her face to 
hers. "I love you Hotaru." she whispered. Hotaru blushed deeply and whispered back, "I love you 
too Chibiusa." Chibiusa smiled slyly and whispered again in Hotaru's ear, "Then, may I show you 
just how much I love you?" Hotaru's face and her body got hot with those words and all she could 
do was nod. 

     Hotaru laid on her back under the black silk sheets of her queen size bed. She was wearing a 
simple rose red nightgown with a black lace trim on the shoulders and at the skirt. Her cheeks had 
a red glow to them as Chibiusa pulled some of the sheets away and went into the bed. She was 
wearing a soft pink nightgown made out of silk. She pulled the covers back up and embraced the 
other girl. Hotaru's cheeks had brightened as she wrapped her arms around Chibiusa slim waist. 
She was trembling slightly to being so close to the person who she had secretly had been 
fantasizing about for so long. She looked into Chibiusa's ruby eyes and became lost within them. 
"Are you sure you're ok with this Tara-chan? You don't have to force yourself." Chibiusa said in a 
gently whisper. Hotaru pulled herself closer to Chibiusa and said weakly, "No, I've been 
dreaming about this for so long. I never thought it was possible but now that it has truly happened 
I want to be as close to you as possible." Hotaru put her hand on the back of Chibiusa's head and 
gave her a passionate kiss. To her it was like kissing a divine angel. Chibiusa's lips were soft like 
rose petals and just as sweet. To Chibiusa, kissing Hotaru was like kissing a star; it was nothing 
short of amazing. Their tongue's danced in their mouths and their fingers locked together, never 
wanting to part, just like them. Chibiusa turned Hotaru over so she was on top oh her. Their kiss 
deepened not only in length but also in feeling. Hotaru began moaning softly as Chibiusa began 
giving her quick butterfly kisses to Hotaru's sweet neck. Hotaru moaned louder, making Chibiusa 
more excited and said almost in a plea, "Chibiusa, I love you." Chibiusa blushed and responded 
with more kisses to Hotaru's neck and a whisper, "I love you too Hotaru." Chibiusa pulled the 
shoulders of Hotaru's nightgown down and pulled the soft garment off, exposing Hotaru's soft 
pale skin. Hotaru wasn't wearing anything underneath the nightgown and felt her naked body turn 
red with embarrassment. "You really are a goddess aren’t you," Chibiusa said, winking to Hotaru. 
Hotaru blushed more and pulled Chibiusa up to her, kissing her deeply and untying the garment 
in the back that Chibiusa was wearing. When she pulled it off, she found that she wasn't the only 
one that didn't wear anything underneath their nightgown. Hotaru laid underneath Chibiusa and 
smiled to her. Chibiusa smiled back and started to kiss Hotaru's chest. Chibiusa heard Hotaru 
moan softly as she started to kiss Hotaru's breast. She could feel Hotaru's hand moving up and 
down her back. Chibiusa took one of Hotaru's breasts in her mouth and sucked gently on it, 
playing with the other one with her hand. Hotaru arched her back up slightly, putting her leg 
between Chibiusa's as she started running her hands threw Chibiusa soft hair. She undid the 
odango's, letting Chibiusa's hair fall free down the length of her back. Chibiusa could feel 
Hotaru's leg between hers and started to move her hips along the length of Hotaru's soft silky leg. 
She let Hotaru's breast go and started to kiss her tummy. Hotaru giggled slightly to the feeling as 
she started to kiss the top of Chibiusa head, taking in the scent of roses in her hair. Chibiusa 
smiled and brought her face down lower. She spread Hotaru's legs apart and gave Hotaru a sly 
smile. Hotaru didn’t know what Chibiusa was going to do until it was too late. Chibiusa bent her 
head down and gently licked Hotaru's untouched flower. Hotaru let out a yell to the feeling of 
Chibiusa wet tongue giving her pleasure that she never knew of. "Chibiusa…" Hotaru moaned as 
she placed her hands on Chibiusa head, almost pushing her head closer. Chibiusa responded to 
Hotaru's moans by taking all of Hotaru in her mouth, licking and kissing her. Hotaru started to 
move her hips in the rhythm of Chibiusa tongue, keeping her eyes closed and moaning louder and 
louder. Chibiusa was enjoying hearing Hotaru moan and say her name repeatedly. She pulled 
Hotaru's lips apart slightly and pushed a finger inside of her. Hotaru gave a loud yell as she 
started to feel something inside of here building up. "Chibiusa…don't stop." Hotaru panted. "I 
won't, trust me." Chibiusa said as she pushed another finger inside of the lavender haired girl. 
Hotaru arched her back as much as she could and finally it hit her. Her first orgasm left like a 
shock of electricity running threw her body, stealing her strength but giving her unimaginable 
pleasure. "Oh my God, you must be an angel cause I think you just took me to heaven." Hotaru 
said as she took deep breaths. Chibiusa giggled and said, "I guess I was good." Hotaru sat up and 
nodded. "Now I want to return the favor." Hotaru said as she pulled Chibiusa into her arms, 
kissing her passionately. Chibiusa was caught off guard by the kiss but soon came over that. 
Hotaru moved behind Chibiusa and started kissing her shoulder blade and neck while her hands 
wondered all over Chibiusa body. Chibiusa moaned softly in Hotaru's ear and whispered, "Be 
gentle." Hotaru kissed the back of Chibiusa ear and said, "With you, always princess." Hotaru's 
hands grabbed Chibiusa breast and started to play with them, gently as Chibiusa had requested. 
Chibiusa gave a small moan and took Hotaru's cheek in her hand and turned her head to kiss her. 
As they kissed Hotaru's hands started to work magic into Chibiusa as they started to glow in a 
soft purple light. She took Chibiusa nipples between her fingers and gave a slight twist. Chibiusa 
started to moan louder, saying Hotaru's name with each breath as Hotaru continued to pleasure 
her. Hotaru turned to face Chibiusa and said, "Now like I said before, I'll return the favor you 
gave me." She spread Chibiusa's legs apart, exposing the girl's wet and untouched flower. Hotaru 
lifted Chibiusa's pussy to her mouth and took her all in. Chibiusa let a short scream out when she 
left Hotaru's tongue washing over her sensitive area and then let another one out when she felt it 
go in her. "Oh Hotaru, oh my God don't stop, please don't stop." Chibi begged as she pushed 
Hotaru's head closer to her. Hotaru pushed her tongue in as deep as she could, enjoying the little 
Chibiusa pie she was having. Finally, Chibiusa couldn't take anymore of the pleasure Hotaru was 
giving her and gave one last finally yell before her body stiffened and her heart forgot to beat. 
Chibiusa collapsed on the bed panting for air. Hotaru put her fingers inside of Chibiusa and took a 
taste of the pink haired girl. She didn't know just how to describe it other then sweet and kinda of 
bitter. All and all, her Chibiusa pie was good. 

      Chibiusa finally started to breathe normally again and noticed Hotaru was gone. She looked 
around the room but there was no sight of her. Suddenly the lights in the room went off and a 
cold chill entered the room. Chibiusa was still naked and started shivering. "Hotaru? Where are 
you?" Suddenly out of no where Hotaru appeared, but as Sailor Saturn. "Hotaru?" Chibiusa 
asked. "I am Sailor Saturn, the soldier born to darkness and death. I was born alone, and meant to 
die alone for I am the forbidden soldier who should never have been. But now I live for a new 
reason now. Not to snuff out a worlds dying light, nor to walk the path of ruin and silence, but to 
serve and protect the princess of the future Crystal Tokyo, Small Lady Chibiusa. And I promise to 
serve, honor, protect, and love her for all the days of my life, and the rest of all eternity." Sailor 
Saturn said bowing on one knee to Chibiusa. Chibiusa could feel tears in her eyes and jumped off 
the bed and took Saturn in her arms. "Oh Hotaru I love you so much!" Saturn put her arms around 
Chibiusa and said, "And I love you my princess, more then the word love cane even describe." 
With that the two girls shared a deep a loving kiss that they would always remember for the rest 
of their lives and even after that. Saturn quickly took Chibiusa in her arms and lifted her up, 
carrying her back into the bed. She laid her down and got on top of her.  She kissed her gently on 
the lips and put her arms around Chibiusa. Chibiusa did the same and Saturn's fuku began to 
disappear, leaving behind only purple ribbons around Hotaru's naked figure. The ribbons seemed 
to go around Chibiusa as well, binding the two together. Hotaru pushed herself on Chibiusa and 
moaned when her sex was rubbed up against Chibiusa. Chibiusa pulled Hotaru into a deeper kiss 
as the two started to rub up against each other. They turned around and switched places with each 
other, but always would the ribbons keep them together, just like their newfound love would keep 
their hearts and their souls together forever. Hotaru began to move her hips faster and harder, 
making both her and Chibiusa pant harder and harder, each one saying the others name over and 
over again until they both stopped when an explosion hit both of them at the same time. The two 
lovers came together, each one screaming "I love you," each one holding on to the other tightly 
hoping nothing would pull them apart. Hotaru fell on top of Chibiusa exhausted and tired. 
Chibiusa panted hard and was very tired herself. Without saying a word, the couple fell asleep in 
each other's arms, the ribbons around them still holding them together. But when they would 
wake, it would be their hearts that would hold the two together for the rest of their lives.



The end.              

Well that’s all! I hope you enjoyed my story. Again this is my first attempt to writing a 
Sekkushiaru Roman. I welcome any comments or feedback and you can e-mail me at 
saturn_archangel@hotbot.com. I hope you enjoyed my story. ^_^